Never been one to let the carrier drop

Ow my aching back. Today is another back-hurts day. Had nightmares all last night.. in one, I was trying to get through a tunnel and there was broken glass everywhere and it was embedding in my skin. In others, other horrible things happening.. in general, it was not a good night. I also kept Kayti up with my tossing and turning, which is pretty horrible.

But, it’s day 25. Halfway to my high water mark, still doing fine. I was put in temptation’s way, in terms of having a cig, last night and managed to resist. I don’t know that I’ve given up cigs forever, but I’m pretty clear on them being among the things that I’m not touching this (year – 25 days). And really, I haven’t been smoking any to speak of for a couple of years now.

One year still seems just as long as it did when I started this adventure, but at least I’ve got lots of stuff to keep me busy.

Sometimes I wish I was a little less busy, but I will survive

Day 22. Naturally it would have to happen that Gateway would crash while I’m out of town. I’ve asked my friend Tory to reboot it, and hopefully he will.

Yesterday was a awful day on all fronts. Woke up at 10:00a, went down to the clients site, wrote a disaster recovery plan, and pulled a first-year-sysadmin stupidity stunt.

I was using text mode on a linux console and switching back and forth between about four consoles. I forgot that one of the consoles had been sshed to another host, and when a process hung because of some incorrect settings, I did a killall – on the wrong machine. Unfortunately, the process was a dependancy for the production services run on that machine, and so they went down, leaving 300 people without their database. All of whom were in the same building I was.

We restarted the database (took about 10 minutes) and ostensibly no data was lost. But I still feel awful. THe boss didn’t even yell at me – just said ‘you know what you did..’

Then more awful things happened..

Day 21 begins. I’m at the customer’s site. No one else is here yet. I think this is the first time I’ve ever been the first one into the office. Yay for drugs.

(For those of you who haven’t been following, my psychiatric nurse, who I’ve been seeing for a bit under a month, hath prescribed me a sleeping pill, Lunestra, which allows me to correct for when my clock slips against the sun. This has been a bit of a relevation in my life because historically, there have been times of every month in which I’m unable to wake up before 1p, then 2p, then 3p, etc. When I was younger, I just had to stay up until 4a and sleep until 1p or so because that’s the only cycle that my body would hold at all. Now, with the help of a little coffee on the hard days, I seem to be able to hold any cycle I want. I’m not even sure what to do with this yet, but it does make waking up at 10a a whole lot easier.

clocking out for the night. taxes done. talked to lawyer. v/ tired.

Sheer’s minimal acceptable rules for religion

1) Any religion that claims that it is the One True Way, and followers of all other religions are going to hell: Automatic disqualification.
2) Any religion that claims war is desirable: Automatic disqualification
3) Negative points for:
i) Suggesting sex is evil, sinful, or bad.
ii) Suggesting sexist, racist, genderist, age-ist, or sexual-orientation-ist beliefs or thoughts
iii) Encouraging hatred, division,
4) Bonus points for
i) Short source code.
ii) Not claiming something that may be false-to-fact i.e. God having the right to judge me. He may have the ability – but might does not make right.
iii) Forgiveness, openmindedness, sharing, caring, love, peace, freedom, beauty, respect, unity, in general attributes that I consider positive
iv) Finding a way to operate that doesn’t require donations or enforcing tithing in the source code or whatever.
v) Encouraging divirsity, cross training, hybrid vigor
vi) OPen and accepting to the shell-shocked

Suggestions? Hmm. We have: Unitarians. They seem on the surface to be pretty safe: they’re all about little dogma and short source code. We have Bhuddists. I’m not sure this qualifies as a religion – it may be more a life philosiphy. However, it fits the hole I’m trying to fill, which is: operating system. I think. Whatever it is that religion is and does.

We might have: Some extremely liberal christian sects.

D18 draws to a close. DIdn’t get as much Brett-work done today as I had hoped, although I did get a con call and some more playing with Flex.

THe day counter keeps on incrementing.

I did get a quick studio session in, recording gangsta rap. This is pre-EQ, pre-compression, ‘by-hand-on-the-fly’ mixdown, but if you all want to hear some gangsta rap as recorded by Sheer Sound Studios, check out http://www.sheer.us/stuff/soloman/Soloman-YoungBlockTycoon.mp3

Just for you all’s amusement, I’ll leave it streaming in a playlist of other faves from various artists who have found their way down here on WSHR tonight.

Once more, remember, that URL is www.wshr.us or www.wshr.org – live streaming from Seattle, WA

I worked on my bipolar tracking software some more. It still doesn’t do a hundredth of the things I’d like it to, but it’s starting to approach functionality. I know it’s silly to write specialized software for a biological condition, especially since there are probably a ton of bipolar management packages out there already, but we all know how to a man with a hammer, everything looks like a nail…

The motorcycle that I purchased against Phoebe’s advice – which got driven a total of ten miles – is now out of my life. I feel 250 lbs lighter.

Also the folding bicycle that Mark Anthony left here.

I’m trying to get rid of the scooters that were collatoral for a loan that was never repaid. I’d like to be down to one electric scooter – the one that Phoebe won from Echo for me, which is still my favorite although I think it would have trouble with my current weight. Actually, I’d really like one based on that design but with a few functional improvements. I could make suggestions. 😉

Alex, my new UU minister friend, or more to the point his church, might take my oldest passive system. It’d be nice to think it was getting used somewhere, because I’m sure not likely to use it with all my Kwalitee Mackie gear.

(i’ve been thinking.. if the tax man ever comes to foreclose, or the bank, or whoever, I do NOT own a recording studio or a sound system. That gear is all borrowed. You all will just have to figure out who’s it really is. Cuz I’m clueless as to who I borrowed it from)

This is just a first rough approximation. I’m planning on updating it as things get more under control.

With a serious yawn. I couldn’t sleep very well last night – went to sleep at like 4a, after taking Lunestra at 3:10 or so.

I think maybe a slightly higher dose of thst might be called for. I’ll talk to Woody about it the next time I see him.

But, anyway. I might have a guy coming to lay some tracks in the studio tonight, there might be a crew coming to remove the motorcycle tonight (for which I actually am being paid, mark me astonished)

Well, time to prepare to face the day..

Must.. go.. buy.. coffee..

Sheer