A explanation for the twilight zone experiences, and other things?
One can be paranoid delusional in a lot of interesting ways. For example, it might just be a paranoid delusion that the doctors don’t want me to leave even though I’m perfectly sane (well, sane for a Sheer anyway) – or it could be that they don’t want me to leave because they are making enormous quantities of money off of me..
or it could be that they don’t want me to leave because I figured out how to build a metal detector jammer. [I never actually did it, of course, and I wouldn’t ever actually do it – I’m not the sort to want to hurt people, in any world or worldline. but it does beg the question..]
Anyway, it should make a interesting sci-fi story.
Reletivity might suggest that what you experience is controlled a lot by your attitude.. your outlook on life will control how you see the world. Exceptions to this might include being clamped in the ER in a horribly uncomfortable position with restraints on because you were excessively peaceful – there has got to be something going on here..
Okay, perhaps what’s going on here is that I’m expecting rational behavior from a collection of humans. Collections of humans are not known for their rational behavior, at all.
Anyway, more and more I’m convinced that when I figure out what is happening to me, I’m not going to like it, at all.
February 9th, 2005 at 12:38 am
Reading your last three entries, I can’t really decide what I think. On the once is a feeling that you’re tapping into something, a view of the world that has possibilities for fascinating changes in you and those around you. On the nonce is a sense that you’ve lost something in the change. If nothing else, you seem to have lost the realization that to stay with those you know in This worldline, you have to take care of the vessel that connects you to it. Or any wordline, for that matter. No matter how far you go, if you plan to return you can’t allow the bridges back to decay. Whatever the doctors may feel about what you see, the real issue is that without a voice to speak, hands to touch your experiences will be lost to everyone here. Eating, while occasionally inconvenient, is necessary.
Or to put it a different way, “Don’t forget to breathe.”