Okay..
So, I refuse to be depressed and upset any more. P. will return or she won’t, but I’m not going to sit around here crying about it. She’s welcome back if she chooses to come back, but I will NOT let her hurt me any more, either through lack of being with me or through not respecting me. Especially when she’s giving me a long list of emailed things not to do to a lover.. that I already knew, and as far as I can tell, she didn’t.
I know you read this, P. – you’re welcome back, but don’t expect me to feel that I shoudl always take your orders even if you come back. I still think you attacked me because I ignored a direct order, so ask yourself if you want to come back if you’re going to be okay with the fact that I am not your slave and never will be. I understand and accept – and always have – that you’re not my slave and never will be.
I would like very much to enter into a relationship with you as equals.